WE WON!!!!!

Oh my gosh...the nerves. Our nerves were so bad. My heart was pounding so hard against my chest the entire time!!! So basically, evil ex was trying to either take away my husband's visitation rights, or have supervised visitation. The ruling...more visitation!!!! The lies she told on the stand were ridiculous, and luckily she's hot-tempered, so our lawyer was able to make her look like shit. I'm really glad our lawyer was ours, because he goes after things! He attacks :o) When he asked her for specific reasons as to why she wanted to take away his rights, the only reasons stated were that he was exhibiting "erratic behavior" like towards the end of their marriage, and she was concerned for the child's safety because sometimes she has tantrums about coming over. Our lawyer asked if the child ever had tantrums while in her possession, she said yes, so then he asked, "So, since she has tantrums with you, we should take away your rights, hu?". He made her look so bad!!! What's better, is that one of the claims was that my husband is bi-polar (which he isn't and has never been diagnosed so; he's epileptic and has had 1 seizure 3 years ago). Our lawyer was asking her, "so, where did you get your medical degree? none? oh, so when did you get your pharmaceutical degree? none? so you're basing these claims on what?" So then ex's father, who is a pharmacist, and a big fan of my husband, got on the stand, he said that the medication in question, which is also used as a bi-polar medication, is first and foremost most popularly prescribed as an anti-seizure medication! That was great!!!!

So the final verdict, we get her first, third and fifth weekends of the month from Thursday through Sunday at 6:00 pm. We will alternate a week for Thanksgiving and Christmas, depending on even and odd numbered years. We get her for 1 month during the summer, and every other spring break, depending on even and odd numbered years. We get her father's day weekend and from 6:00-8:00 pm on her birthday, if it is not already our weekend. No supervision required :o)!!!!!!! It's so nice to see my husband happy and smiling again :o) That's the best part! So now it's......

Here we go again

Court on Friday at 9:30.



I'm going to go vomit now...

Reminds Me of Someone...

Why Aren't These On Anymore?

Greatness!!!

Eye Tricks

I had to post this without looking at it much. It creeps me out!!

New Hair Cut

Having limited funds, one can't just go to the local salon for a beauty treatment, so I did the next best thing...I had my husband cut my hair. Not too bad, actually. Took a good 3 inches off.

Phoeesceez

My husband and I have crossed yet another comfort boundary. And yet, we're still attracted to each other. It's fun!

Memories

To go back to those days, sitting on the floor with the blacklight on, drumming on the edge of the bed, closing your eyes while listening to music and describing the movie you see playing in your mind, all while listening to "M-m-m-m-m-m-m my arm gets tired. My arm gets tired. My arm gets tired." and "Throw a belt, over the shower curtain rod....and swing!"

Those were the days :o)

This speaks to me:

I'm just a normal boy
That sank when I fell overboard
My ship would leave the country
But I'd rather swim ashore without
A lifevest I'd be stuck again
Wish I was much more masculine
Maybe then I could learn to swim
Like 14 miles away

Now floating up and down
I spin colliding into sound
Like whales beneith me diving down
I'm sinking to the bottom of my
Everything that freaks me out
The lighthouse beam has just run out
I'm cold as cold as cold can be
Be

(Chorus)
I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion, yea
Let the rain of what I feel right now come down
Let the rain come down

Where is the coastguard I
Keep looking each direction
For a spotlight
Gimme something
I need something for protection
Maybe (couldn't understand) would do just fine
The (couldn't understand) left behind
I'm tredding for my life, believe me
How can I keep up this breathing

Not knowing how to think
I scream aloud, begin to sink
My legs and arms are broken down
Within before the solid ground
I'm reaching for the life within me
How can one man stop his ending
I thought of just your face
Relaxed and floated into space

Chorus

Now waking to the sun
I calculate what I had done
Like jumping from the bow, yea
Just to prove that I knew how, yea
It's midnight's late reminder of
The loss of her, the one I love
My will to quickly end it all
Set front row in my need to fall
Into the ocean, end it all

Chorus

"Into the Ocean"- Blue October

Poo Poo

So, I've been free from a good friend for some time now. Now I feel like I'm this not-easy-to-please, grumpy-butt bitch. I have these thoughts which I just obsess about, and then I feel crappy and depressed and nothing can bring me out of it. I'm not used to that and I don't know how to handle that. I used to be able to just "get rid" of those feelings and thoughts, and then I didn't give a shit. That was great! NOW?! Now I have to deal with them. Granted, everything that's happening isn't helping, and that's where the obsessive thoughts come from. So, then I think that anyone in my situation would be down in the dumps too. But I don't even want to be around myself sometimes...and that's pretty bad.

My dear, sweet husband. He tries to make me happy. He cleaned all weekend long; laundry, bathrooms, dishes, he even mopped. And what did I think? Why don't you just stop cleaning and come sit with me? We haven't spent time together because you've just been cleaning and cleaning. Enough already! And then I wonder what the hell is wrong with me for complaining that my husband is cleaning. HE'S CLEANING! BE HAPPY!

See what I mean?

Christmas

Due to financial circumstances WAY beyond our control....Christmas will be slim this year. When I say slim, I mean anorexic/bulimic slim. Our deepest apologies!

Katie Holmes' New Hair Cut

Since hooking up with Tom Cruise, Katie Holmes has gone under a transformation to become more stylish. Instead of the dowdy duds she was frequently spotted wearing prior to their marriage, Katie learned to appreciate high-fashion and pricey designers.
She also cut her normally plain-jane long hair into a bob over the summer, and now, it looks she's gone even more in vogue on us. Katie has traded in her ho-hum bob for a more cutting-edge bob with bangs that you'd imagine seeing on the catwalks. She showed off her new style at a German awards show where hubby Tom Cruise was to be honored.
A little stying of daughter Suri's hair, and they could have mom and daughter twin hairdos!